Seeing my kids happy and enjoying each other just makes me feel this weird and overwhelming sense of well-being.
It gives me the encouragement I need to press on. Just like working outside the home, being at home full time has its struggles:
loneliness and isolation.
A feeling that everything you do today, you have done before, and will need to do again tomorrow.
The fear that no one notices or values what you do all day.
The guilt of not getting it all done, thus proving your worth.
The need for being self-motivated, self-governing, and balancing it all with a huge amount of God's grace and direction.
But this makes it all worth it.
This reminds me that the value I have in their lives is unable to be measured by clean floors, huge stockpiles of home-canned goods, and perfectly filled out homeschool worksheets.
Those things are wonderful, even fulfilling at times. But home is more than a house where I keep busy all day. Homeschooling is more than worksheets and tests. Life is more than an endless list of things to achieve.
Home is where I make my kids feel safe and loved by letting them be themselves and enjoying them in the process.
Homeschooling is learning through life AND books.
And life has one central gaze point:
to glorify God, not myself.